how can I deal with my main trigger still around?
My mothers ex husband sexually abused me all throughout highschool and after now that I live with my gf he drives by multiple times a day idk why he feels the need but It gives me a lot of flashbacks which cause me to want to cut more I wish he would just go away :"(
I really sympathise with you here, I experienced a similar situation and I never felt safe. After much brain storming and a lot of courage I packed up and moved towns, it was the best decision I ever made. I'm trying to think of a good course if action for you here but sexual abuse and the triggering effects are different for everyone. Have you ever spoke to a therapist?
I see one weekly now unless I get screwed over by a ride That 50 min session really helps and I feel comfortable and trust him but once I'm out of the office idk what going to happen, I'm really putting a lot of effort into self-help and bettering myself just sometimes with those triggers and me fighting with my gf I feel stuck.
I have to agree that in this case you are probably right, and i think its sadistic of this person to torture you this way. Continue to speak to your therapist and carry on with your self help, you are doing a great job and are clearly an amazing, strong person to have made it through this.
I'm sorry to hear that, keep reaching out to people, we are here for you every step of the way.
