Yay Trauma *confetti* (Trigger Warning)
Does anyone else feel like sometimes it feels like the trauma messed every single part of them up? It feels like I'm just a bunch of trauma responses stacked up wearing a trench coat, like I'm not even a person anymore. They broke me. They absolutely shattered me. It feels like I'm alianated from everyone because I can't even function normally anymore. I just don't understand. It feels like my parents don't even care sometimes. I know they do, but they don't know how to deal with it, so they just ignore it. Ignore me. I just want someone in my life who isn't just trying to keep up the appearance of "happy normal family" and just help me. Sorry for the long rant.
I wrote this, and I thought some of you might me able to relate.
Reporting
Why is reporting more stressful than enduring?
Why is the statement “this is a very serious accusation” used more than
“Are you okay”
Why is the focus on the effect on his future
Than his effect on mine
You sound like my partner, it is still her every day , she is triggered every day even by TV. I don't know what makes it better, but I wish you luck.
@Marigold357
Dear Marigold:
You have the right to rant, and rant, and rant even more, until the end of time. This is nothing to be sorry about. We all are here to listen to anything you wish to share.
It seems that your whole family is overwhelmed. You are absolutely overwhelmed. Your parents are overwhelmed. This is very sad. It's a tragedy. But it's the way things are expected to be by now. There is nothing wrong with you or your parents about this.
You are overwhelmed by all those nasty trauma symptoms. They don't leave you at peace. It might seem there is nothing but chaos, pain and sadness.
But you are still there. You are very intelligent, it shows. Insightful. Fully aware of all that is going on. Able to take it and express it.
And you reported. This shows that you are really brave and very strong. Today, you are my hero for that.
You have huge capabilities. It will take time. it will take pain. But you will get better. And better, better and better.
You will heal.
You might not get back to the person you were before. You will become an even stronger person. With good days and bad days.
This he_ll someday will end.
And yes, you will be able to surround yourself with loving, caring people. B
By now, get closer to your best friends. Get a good therapist. Come here often. We are here for you.
I wish you all the best in the world.
You deserve it, Marigold.
All the best, and then some more.
Keep participating in this community, You are loved and valued here.
Marcelo.
@Marigold357
I am sorry you are struggling but glad you posted. Everyone deserves support.
It is difficult for others to understand, especially if they haven't experienced it. Regardless of others, keep fighting for yourself.
It was very brave of you to report, I'm sorry that the questioning wasn't supportive to you. You deserved to be listened to and given every opportunity to feel heard/believed and supported.
I hear your battle, keep fighting. You are strong and courageous, a warrior.
Yes. This. So much this. I feel so stunted and like I am miles behind my peers as a result of my trauma. I have spent years grieving the person I “could have been.” I think it’s important to focus on that and give yourself time to grieve. When you’re ready, you can embark on the slow process of putting yourself back together again. It’s hard work, but we have to do it. Whether we made the mess or not. That was one thing that I really struggled with. Why should I clean it (the trauma) up if it wasn’t my fault? The injustice made me burn. But at the end of the day we are worth taking care of. It’s not a burden. It’s a duty.
@Marigold357
*seriously* felt that. I know it sucks a lot. Feel free to tag me whenever, i'm more than happy to listen <3