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Marigold357
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PathStep 111 Compassion hearts679 Forum posts14 Forum upvotes43 Current upvotes43 Age GroupAdult Last activeNovember, 2021 Member sinceAugust 18, 2021
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To All Those Stressed About Thanksgiving
Eating Disorder Support / by Marigold357
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 November 15th, 2021
...See more You got this. I know it's so difficult and stressful and overwhelming sometimes. But, you got this. You are so strong, and smart, and beautiful the way you are. I know there's a lot of food with this holiday, and the media will focus on the not-good aspects of it, but that's not the whole story. Your ed is a liar. Everything it tells you is wrong and not true. Food is fuel. Even holiday food. There are no "bad foods." There is room for both veggies and dessert. I believe in you, and I'm rooting for you!
Almost 1 Year Clean
Self-Harm Recovery / by Marigold357
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 November 5th, 2021
...See more I will be one year clean on December 1st, I'm really proud of me for getting here, going from borderline addicted to almost a year clean. Y'all got this, and keep fighting I believe in you!
Mari's Corner of the Internet
Trauma Support / by Marigold357
Last post
 October 5th, 2021
...See more Hey y'all, I like to write, so here's just a place to read some of my writings, maybe relate to them, just a place to hang. Some of them might be triggering, so please take care of yourselves. Welcome to my corner of the internet!
Childhood Mental Illness * Major TW*
Trauma Support / by Marigold357
Last post
 October 5th, 2021
...See more Hey y'all, major major trigger warning for this story. Please take care of yourselves. I can't share at home, so I thought this might help. I don't know. Sometimes it feels like I never got a childhood. I had my first panic attack at eight years old. I got hit and beat up all the time at school, and I would have panic attacks in the bathroom. I thought I was dying. At nine, I started self harming out of the pressure and panic and guilt. When I was ten, I got an eating disorder due to the bullying and self loathing I felt. I restricted and lost so much weight. I could count all my ribs and got dizzy walking between classes. At eleven I attempted suicide for the first time. Eleven years old, and I thought death was the best option. At twelve I was r*ped. They, three, chased me down. I tried to fight, but two of them held me down. At thirteen I tried again. At fourteen, I tried again. At fifteen I got my scars from sh. At sixteen my eating disorder came back. I'm ten months clean from sh now, but im still struggling with trauma and flashbacks. I dont know what to do, but I thought sharing might help. It just feels like I’m broken, that no one will want me in the future because of it, once they figure out what all happened.
Yay Trauma *confetti* (Trigger Warning)
Trauma Support / by Marigold357
Last post
 October 22nd, 2021
...See more Does anyone else feel like sometimes it feels like the trauma messed every single part of them up? It feels like I'm just a bunch of trauma responses stacked up wearing a trench coat, like I'm not even a person anymore. They broke me. They absolutely shattered me. It feels like I'm alianated from everyone because I can't even function normally anymore. I just don't understand. It feels like my parents don't even care sometimes. I know they do, but they don't know how to deal with it, so they just ignore it. Ignore me. I just want someone in my life who isn't just trying to keep up the appearance of "happy normal family" and just help me. Sorry for the long rant. I wrote this, and I thought some of you might me able to relate. Reporting Why is reporting more stressful than enduring? Why is the statement “this is a very serious accusation” used more than “Are you okay” Why is the focus on the effect on his future Than his effect on mine
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