TW : Harassment

I was 16 or 17 when I was harassed and groomed online. I was in 3rd std. when I was teased. I'm trying so hard to cope up with the thoughts. To find myself again. To get rid of that shame, the humiliation, the agony but I don't know how long it will take for me to be able to do it. I'm tired. I'm so tired of carrying it everyday. I'm so tired of feeling worthless. Of feeling that I don't deserve love. Of being this weird person who has so many health issues that she doesn't know where to start from. I took a step to be in therapy. It's helping but some days can be so hard that they take my breath away from me in a minute...and I know no one else can relate to it except the people who have been on the receiving end of the abuse and humiliation. When they've been made to feel everyday that they're nothing more than an object. That their emotions, their words, their body.. nothing matters. 

Some days I see that little girl and can't help but observe her pain, her innocence that's no more there..

Does it ever go away? Will I ever heal? How do I bring her back? How do I make her feel she didn't deserve any of it? Do you feel remorse?