Need help
How do i tell my parents of what ive been through, i was s assaulted and s abused by my own brothers growing up as a little girl and then my second year of high school I was assaulted and almost raped by my classmate what if my parents hate me or dont want me anymore what if they blame me for letting it happen im scared, and I wanted to reach out to the suicide helpline because I actually was gonna attempt suicide yesterday because i couldnt handle the pain i felt inaide and im scared to take meds to help me out because in a way even if they help me out their gonna change who i am in a way as well and im just so messed up i believe the wrong thing's because its how i grew up what i was taught and how i was raised and told to believe and its hard to get rid of those beliefs even though i know there wrong but i still cant help but to believe them and it sucks but yeah
@shyomega123
Hey there. I am sorry to hear about the abuse that you have experienced. I can see that you are a teen user, so I am wondering if you can reach out to a school counselor or someone who can contact an official. You do not deserve the abuse and it is in no way your fault. Your parents, if they found out, would not believe that it is your fault. If anything, ideally, they would hold you tightly and cry. No parent ever wants to find out that their child got hurt in such a heinous manner. But it is important to reach out and get support, especially at a young age. Remember, you're not alone here.
I guess thats true, but you dont know my parents like I do, they would blame me andd get mad at me daddy would hit me and say sorry afterwards and say hes just sad and upset and say it wont happen again but its happened multiple times so its hard to trust him let alone anyone especially men, im just to be used as a sexual release for them and nothing more, I dont go to school anymore my parents took me out so I cant talk to anyone and ask for much help and last time I told the school about what that boy did to me all they did was get him to say sorry and then they said the issue was solved, I knew why that was all they had him do they didnt believe me they thought I was lying no one ever believes me unless its something they wanna hear unless my answer satisfies them so its all pointless as far as I can tell ive already lost hope they've already taken everything away from me and made me feel like it was theirs to take because their the reason im alive right now like I had no right to have what I had like I didn't deserve what I had so life life is empty for me I feel but I dont feel its frustrating but i soon feel numb after so it doesnt matter anymore and I learned a long time ago the ones who suffer usually never stop siffering are never free from their monsters no matter what so its pointless to try and escape though i keep thinking about escaping but i cant i would never make it out the door
Oh hun I’m so sorry to hear this. It sounds like there’s abuse from your parents. Getting hit like that is not okay. If you haven’t already try reaching out to child services.
It was hard for me to talk about what my older brother did to me. Some of my family members did actually go the way you’re afraid of. But I had to tell my family because they deserve to know about my brother. It’s not safe for him to be alone with children. The truth this kind of truth is extremely hard to tell.
I am so sorry that this is happening and that you don't feel safe disclosing.
For anyone who is struggling with the reaction and familial aspect of disclosure, I found this article quite helpful for myself and reconciling with the fact that some family members did not choose me. It is true that not all family members will choose to believe the survivor, and may side with the abuser.
https://psychcentral.com/lib/reasons-family-members-side-with-sexual-abusers#1
I sincerely hope it helps and wishing all the best, always.
-Jo
@JoyfulMovement Wow thanks for this really good article!
