Lockerroom jumped
hey guys, I'm Bote, and I'm a 16 year old male now in highschool. This is not a recent story, as this happened back when I was 12 in Middle School. It was in gym class, and I was in the class with all of the big scary sports people. Anyhow, they were all okay with me, and it was all okay, but it was the first year we were required to change in the lockerooms, and I was always uncomfortable changing in front of people because I felt really skinny and frail. On a fateful day, be and a friend of mine were talking about how we were going to play Dodgeville, which we never got to play. And then a kid (14) said he wanted to play with my t*ts afterward he got all up in my face and then stripped me down, and everyone saw it happen. He ran out, and as I was putting my clothes back on another dude (Also 14) walked over and starting touching me, which he poked my nipples. And finally another kid came over and stripped me down again and started yelling when he looked at my d*ck. Only the first kid got in trouble, as the other people were defended by the people in the locker room, telling me it never happened and that I was crazy. There was a whole dasa investigation, and my mom filed sexual assault charges, but nothing happened. For context I was the geeky small nice kid, and they were the towering basketball players, and they were the top athletes so of course they didn't get in trouble. There was also a bunch of other stuff but honestly it's no the point of this question. How should I seek closure from this?
@TheBOTE12907
That's a hard one. Lots of humiliation. I was bullied as a child so I understand. I want to be a successful kid on areas in which you're strong and that will keep your self esteem high. You could be small geeky kid, but if your nice sensitive and listening to girls, they will flock to your. The good ones at least.
You know it is weird for this event to happen to me, and I say that because I was very much bullied in elementary, But nothing in Middle School due to school putting me in certain classes etc. Something else I forgot to mention was that in 5th grade I was extremely bullied, and in 6th they put me in a class with a teacher who can "help" kids. But when the lockeroom thing happened and I went to them for help, they did nothing. After the event, and especially last year, I wanted to get rid of my geekiness, and I went through a "glow up". I started doing my better, got style, became fit, but then and even now I feel really disconnected from my true self. But yea, I have grown a lot, some good some bad, but there are two parts of me. The part that thinks I was weak and I should have fought back, and the other part where I was strong by being kind and having faith (which wrll let me down). Thank you turtle 😇
I mean, you want to be a successful...
@TheBOTE12907
I am so sorry this happened to you. I think that people who bully are the biggest cowards and really are scared and insecure . They use others to make themselves feel big when they are small weak minded people...
You are brave and strong to get through this experience. I think you might benefit from therapy if that's possible for you to participate in . In my experience therapy has helped me through alot of trauma and I wish I would have gone sooner and not waited so long. Therapy gives you tools to go forward and can help you find ways to build self esteem.
I wish you all the best , remember your stronger than they are .
ABB 💜