Introduction + Some trauma dumping

Hello! I'm nate, I go by all pronouns and i've recently joined this sub community. I'm 13 and part of the LGBTQ+ community too.

I grew up with tons of trauma just being layered on me, and one specific topic I want to talk about is gr00ming

Keep in mind, I am not in danger and nor in need of any protection of any way, this is just my past story, thank you! 

[TW: mentions of gr00ming]

when I was three years old, its unfortunate me and my sister shared the same trauma because she's 5 years old and it happened when she was the same age, three. 

I was formerly close with my grandma growing up but some things she did questioned me. she was quite young when I was born, she was just barely 52 or 53 (her bday is 5 days after mine). she's my dad's mother and my dad was also given trauma when he was younger, some things he experienced was physical abuse, neglection, emotional abuse, and I'm not sure what type of trauma this was, but he's been locked out of the house at least more then once if he was late to return home.

Anyways, my mother told me when I was three years old, I went upstairs (I currently live in an apartment with 2 stories, and my cousins live above, i've lived there my whole life) to see my cousins and I ended up coming downstairs myself, with the most innocent of face, I said to her that grandma had touched my pr1vat3 p@rts, she believed me but she never did anything about it. when she told me this story I was horrified. at first, I thought it was sexual assault, turns out i've been gr00med.

I don't know where she gr00med me in that tiny apartment, but it must've been ignored by the other people who were there. and then when my sister was three, my grandma had also taken her upstairs, and because my mom didn't tell me the story before she was gr00med, the same thing happened to her, and I didn't know before she came down, told my mom, and then my mom told me the similar story. its disgusting how someone so close to us gave us our first trauma. no child should have to go through that.

yes, she still visits us as if nothing happened. my mom has told me horrible stories about her, and her ways of thinking is horrible. I grew apart from her and I haven't seen her in almost 3 weeks, and whenever shes around I stay away and keep an eye on my baby sister, considering she is five.

my other sister, however, who is ten, was never close to her, and often stayed by my mom when she was younger, that's how I suppose, she avoided getting gr00med, huge bullet dodged. 

knowing this happened to me makes me sick, even if it happened now over a decade ago. I hope to eventually press charges once i am eighteen.

not in any danger nor in need of protection, perfectly okay once again!

Nate, 13, All pronouns