I See You

I hope you can all give yourselves some grace and love today <3 As a sexual assault survivor, I want to tell you that I love you, and I am rooting for you. I hope my story doesn't trigger any of you but gives you a perspective from someone who might be like you, dealing with stuff no one should have to deal with. You're so strong. Please don't hesitate to reach out if you need to talk - even if I'm not frequently on here.

In 2022, I was sexually assaulted during my sophomore year of college (not including two other times it happened to me to a lesser degree), and it has taken the last 2 years to get over it, with the immense help of therapy. I still struggle with hypersexuality in the form of se-ting, self-esteem issues, feeling lonely, and feeling like I'll never be able to find a partner/be with a partner in the future because of what happened to me.

What he did was wrong, and he tried to say that what happened was on both of us because we were both drinking that night. His only concern was not getting kicked out of school because I might report him (I never did). I hadn't said yes to anything except kissing, but he thought it was okay to continue after I stopped him once, and throughout those ten minutes, I didn't explicitly say yes to anything. Only nodding and not making a lot of eye contact.

It also took me 2 weeks to realize anything felt remotely off or out of place before I confronted him about it. In the end, it's a learning process, and please don't beat yourself up about what happened or what you could've done better. It was not your fault <3