Hi I'm new here but struggling
bestSkies5390
November 16th, 2022
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Hi. I'm really struggling with my emotions lately. I've just started counselling for my childhood grooming and SA that happened with a close family member who is 7 years older than me.
I find it very hard to differentiate the feelings of love I have for this person as there a close family member and the hate I feel now I'm older and and what he did to me was wrong.
I grew up thinking it was normal and I thought that's how certain family members showed each other they love each other. I was promised toys and gifts if I did what was asked and kept our special secret. But now I feel soo much shame and I'm disgusted with myself for loving this person that abused me for 7 years.