Fighting an invisible war
OliverCas
April 29th, 2021
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I have been having terrible body memories and I have been horrible, I am not handling it well. I couldn't stop hurting myself for the past two days and I am drinking a lot.
I had to hide away for a couple of days. I had to go back to my apartment, I got rid of all the mirrors and I stayed there trying to keep my shit together. I am not good, even when I try to be better I am just always fighting this invisible war that I can't see but I feel it, to my core. I feel everything but I cant remember. I am having nightmares still.
I am a mess right now and I am still hiding, but today was better. I hope tomorrow is better as well. I just need a fucking break.