Don"t be silent and Please get counseling

Take heed from someone who has lived a life of sexual assaults, during a time when the only help that the medical and mental health professions gave was sedative medications and hospitalization. Not wanting to be drugged all the time I chose to not seek any more help. I lived with the secrete of incest and molestation and rape my whole life. Suffering in silence striving to function on normal bases, while I died a little every single day of my life. Feelings of shame, inadequacy, abandonment, with the lack of trust in people. I had burning anger that had surmounted into a heated internal rage brewing inside me. A flame was so intense that it felt indistinguishable. I build walls around myself as a shield from the world that lead to even deeper despair. The bitterness that was surmounting was consuming my life like bad cancer.. The night was the enemy playground of my mind. Plagued by flashbacks and hypervalent, afraid to go out and afraid of my own shadow.

The abusers were winning, I was losing the battle to my own recovery. Now there is help for us, and people who really do want to help if we reach out. BREAK THE SILENCE, TELL SOMEBODY.

YOU MAY FEEL YOU CAN BE OK ON YOUR OWN but Please get Professional help so you don't spend a lifetime enslaved to the abuser and your self.

With love, I did this