Trigger Warning
At the age of 5 I watched my mom being trapped and chased around her car by a babysitter's husband.
@creativeStrings1531
That sounds so scary, thank you for sharing. You are strong.
Thanks. I feel like the babysitter's husband is my hero and role model
@creativeStrings1531...because you want to trap and chase your mother?
I'm confused what you are trying to say. You enjoyed watching, so are you saying you have the urge to do this to other people, as in being in the role of the aggressor?
Or was it that you were 5, and thought they were playing a game, and now you feel bad that you didn't feel bad about it then?
Or Is he your role model because you and your mom have a bad relationship?
Either way, you're not the only one with these thoughts and feelings, and there is help out here.
If you are wanting to harm people here, you may have succeeded, I don't know. I hope not.
You did write "trigger warning" as the subject line, so part of you was trying to save people from what you were about to say. Perhaps, you should take this thought process further and continue to fight your urges to help the people that the other part of you wants to harm.
Best of luck to you.
@E194T
No I do not want to harm anybody on here and the babysitter's husband is my hero in role model because I have a bad relationship with my mom and because he was protecting me and my brother from her trying to kidnap my brother and I because she did not have custody of my brother and I during her divorce to my dad and I did not know much of my mom then because I was around my dad because he could take care of us better because he had a good job and the babysitter and her husband and her children were like my daytime family because my dad worked a lot so my babysitter fed me my cereal and I played with her children but no I do not want to harm anybody on and I do talk to a therapist and I've told my therapist that I feel as if the babysitter's husband is my hero in role model also
@creativeStrings1531
Thank you for sharing
❤️
I enjoyed watching and waving to the babysitter's husband as he stood against the front door blocking it on my mom
I feel like I was the babysitter's husband's cheerleader since I waved to him as he stood against his front door 🚪 blocking it on my mom
I get to go go see my therapist today which is nice
Hate the holiday time don't know if my mom will show up unannounced
I hate not knowing if my mom will show up unannounced
Feel like someday if my mom were to show up unannounced I would be ready to trap her
Get to see my therapist today
Get to see my therapist today
