Struggling with healing from trauma & abuse
Hello. My name is Candy. I'm new here. I'm a 37-year old single homeless disabled female.
The former foster mother abused us & put us in a cult. There are some things I wish I could talk about on here. Everyone I try to turn to shuns me. They think I'm trying to seeking pity, attention, drama & money whenever I try to reach out for emotional support, & that's not true. I'm just trying to survive day to day. I'm blacklisted from employment. People don't want to allow me to work. I get bullied, stalked, spied on & harassed by society. The foster mom put me in the program. So many lies & smear campaigns. This cult is trying everything they can, to drive me to suicide, but I keep fighting to stay alive.
People younger than me think they can disrespect me because they perceive of me as childish, when I'm not trying to be. I was diagnosed as Pervasive Developmental Disorder-NOS in kindergarten, but it was ruled out. I had 2 strokes @ age 5, a few surgeries throughout childhood, etc.
The foster mom brainwashed me & my twin sister to not get along, & now my twin sister is very abusive, hostile, vicious & unmerciful towards me.
I'm here for emotional support & advice.
Candy, I'm so sorry your going thru all this. I too am struggling with some pretty awful trauma. It's not like yours it's different but it's haunted me now for 3 years. I was diagnosed CPTSD/MDD/ anxiety disorder and I came to 7 cups for similar reasons to yours, seeking support. Professional Therapy has helped alot but it wasn't enough I needed more help and I knew it and it took me a long time to find 7 cups. I really don't have a support team like ppl suggest. My stuff is so severe and difficult for ppl to hear. It takes trained ppl to really help/listen. I can't handle judgement from someone who has no idea what I've been thru or the dark places my mind has been. Therapist is the reason I'm still here. I'm lucky to have found her. It's difficult many days a week for me and I'm unable to work. Currently I'm on disability from my job. I don't pretend to know how to help anyone because I'm struggling to help myself but I can say professional help has been instrumental for me. I hope my post helps you in some small way. Your doing good reaching out here on 7 cups. 💜ABB
