Repressed Memories.
Trigger Warning.
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I think my childhood best friend molested me…
I never really thought that far back in awhile. But somehow my mind wandered back to that memory. At the time I didn’t think anything of it. I thought that’s just what friends do, have secrets and play games. But looking back as an adult that was wildly inappropriate. I’ve had many issues in my life and I’ve always questioned what the root cause could have been. The things that’s dawns as me to make it abuse is the fact that I was 5 and she was 7/8. I’m sure something probably happened to her to make her do it. But I feel like I’ve been blind to so much because of it..
Don't blame yourself. You were so little you probably didn't even know what was happening... If you want to talk I'm here...
I didn’t know what was going on, but I’ve had so much else happen later in life that I wonder if because of this it made me more naive to my surroundings. I put too much trust in people I thought genuinely cared for me and I’ve paid the price countless times. Did I purposely put myself into those other situations? I feel like my life is all one big lie. One trauma after the next and I’m starting to not tell the difference between fact and fiction… idk. It’s hard to explain… but my flashbacks are getting worse…