Family Wound-can’t sleep
growing up, my family life wasn’t ideal. It could have been a lot worse, but it definitely could have been better too. This has left me with this huge family wound where I would give anything to have a loving family to call my own (instead of a parent who is on their third marriage). I’m a grown adult but still have a lot of anger about the fact that I don’t have a mother or father figure in my life. This wound has been reopened because of attending a friend’s wedding (she has a solid family), being reminded of my younger siblings death (they died when I was 8), and needing to plan a trip home (I live in a different state than my family) for the holidays.
I’ve been trying to fall asleep for almost two hours with no luck because my brain keeps looping through anger and wanting a the kind of family I feel like I can never have because of being diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder a little over a year ago. Even with counseling, I just don’t know how to get this wound to heal…