C-PTSD: CSA, domestic abuse, car crash

Hello everyone. I wanted to share my story of being diagnosed with C-PTSD.

I've had many traumatic experiences in my life.

My mother & father seperated when I was very small and my mother started dating soon after. She fell in love with a fellow alcoholic artist who was extremely abusive to her, and he came with two small children whom he looked after. They became my brothers & he became my tormentor. I experienced severe childhood abuse from both this man & my mother and eventually I was placed into a group home & then a foster home when my mother went to jail for child neglect. I never saw "my brothers" because we were seperated in the system because we were not blood related. I went to live with my dad and this was age 11. I experience weekly nightmares of my mothers old boyfriend.

Around age 16 I dropped out of grade 10 and 2 years later I found myself in a severely abusive relationship. He was very controlling and physically abusive all the time. It took 2 years to get out of that relationship with the help of the police & domestic helplines in my area. I still experience a lot of habits I had from this domestic relationship including acting strangely towards my current partner, getting scared easily when I think he is upset at me, etc etc.

I finally found a new guy a while later and we've been together ever since. He encouraged me to join a gym, become healthier, loose 80lbs and get my first ever job which I worked at for a year right up until my car accident.

My partner was driving me and someone ran a red light, slammed into my passenger side of the car and left me permanently disabled. Lived in the hospital and a rehabilitation facility for many weeks after. I had a wheelchair for 6 months after the accident & a daily nurse for a year and a half. I have severe PTSD from this incident & experience daily nightmares & flashbacks. I also have nightmares regarding the hospital and rehab facility.

2 days ago I was formally diagnosed with C-PTSD & confirmed a diagnosis of borderline personality disorder & depression. I was referred to a PTSD clinic but I'm just waiting now.

I am trying so hard not to let this effect me but it's so hard. It feels like whenever my life gets better, something else horrible happens to me.