sealed/buried bottles
Ive a person in my life who thinks I need help. Im beginning to agree. But tis not easy. Ive reached a point in my life where Ive looked around only to find Ive no one I call friend. Ive been fine with this for many moons. Ive spent so long sealing things into bottles in my head and burying them away that Ive become numb to many things. Lately though, emotions hit unexpectedly, in very uncontrolled ways. I function fine for the most part. Or so i think. Ive known since I was a little kid that Im not like others. Being a chameleon isnt easy but avoids soo many others issues that its become a defense, a shell I wear so I dont have to confront issues not allowed while growing up. Anyone out there feel the same?
@patientWillow2644
Fellow chameleon here!
I bottled so many things up in my life and burried them away like you. And just like you it came back and hit me in the head with sudden uncontrolled emotions. Sudden crying, meldowns, explosive anger, all of those things. These are the signs that are there to tell you that it's high time to find a better way to deal with your problems and emotions.
Now I totally understand that not everyone is fortunate enough to have an environment where they are safe to express their fears and issues. I don't have that luxury either, so I get you. Like you I don't really have a person in my life I can call friend. Not in real life at least. But that's what 7 cups is perfect for. Here you can express how you feel and share and involve yourself without having to fear judgement or being shamed.
I highly recommend you say hello in the group chats and participate in the daily sharing circles. And if you're not comfortable with that just yet, then there are always listeners out there who will be there for you. Be aware that you may have to get through a few of them at first until you find the right listener for the night, but I promise you they are out there. Don't be afraid to politely move on to another listener if the first or second or fifth listener wasn't right for you. The gentlest soul will be waiting for you somewhere on here.
And if you're still not comfortable with all of this, introductions, ice breakers and events are always great things to participate in to shake some of those initial worries. And you can always make more forum posts like this to share how you feel.
It's great to have you here with us Willow! I hope I'll see you around ❤️❤️
@Soe22 Yes, apologies, it has been weeks. But busy and (fill in emotion here) weeks!! I wanted to come back and thank you for allowing me to know that Im not alone in the bottles, emotions, chameleon way. Its one thing to be this way, its one thing to think one is noit alone in it. its truly calming to Know Im not alone in any of this.
My sincerest thanks for reading..
.. and responding
