big family thing happening and little to no support

hi , i hope if youre reading you are having an okay day bc it means a lot youre just glancing at this.

❕trigger warning for abusive mother & father❕

I moved out last year, and cut ties w my mother and father while saying how abusive they were to me. lived with my half brother since, and last week he found out something that crushed me. My mother is planning on taking me off insurance without saying anything. taking my medicine and therapy like that is equivalent to hearing her say I dont care if youre alive or not.

I dont like her, but this has hurt me so much. And its been so hard. Ive had so many breakdowns, called the crisis line so much i probably keep them in business and its so much harder because 2 out of my 3 friends arent available this week.

i have to see my mother on saturday when she drops off the last of my things here and im so scared.. i have to act like i dont know what shes planned and idk how im gonna get to saturday..

im venting here because i had another breakdown but my friend is busy and im tired of crying alone but thank you for reading