Thoughts

I'm not sure how this is going to go but I should probably give it a try. Don't use my voice very often but I'm choking inside so have to get some of this crap out......

I have survived the first day at my new workplace

why did I have to be the one to move?

scared

what if I am totally useless and mess this place up too?

am I really rubbish at my job? Surely I would have an inclination if I was?

does 19 years service count for nothing? Am I being punished?

lost and alone

I have no one I can turn to

Hard to trust when all you know is hurt and rejection

So much going on inside but it's all jumbled and knotted together

scared I will end up back in the dark place, can't fight it again....