The Journey: Into or out of darkness
I'm not really sure what the point of this space is, but sometimes I need somewhere to put things. To write thoughts and ideas swirling around in my head. To share things I've written or want to write. The thread in the "My Story" section is important and holds it's own meaning, but I feel I need a new space to put these things. I'm not sure where I'm going right now, or if I'll even get there.
My brain keeps screaming. Screaming fire, danger, warning. I don't know if it's paranoia, hypervigilance, or if there is a valid reason to be uncomfortable/ fear the situation. I know I don't like it and I don't like how I'm feeling about it.
@practicalIdeal2007 *offering safe hugs*
You are definitely not invisible! I mean, I can see you for sure! :)
Also, you matter. For me anyways, I am always glad to see you around here and I am sure that others are glad to have you here with us in our little community as well. 
I mean, I actually appreciate all that you do. I mean, you have even posted it here, I think, that you do help other here. I mean, just by sitting with someone and being there for them it can sometimes really mean the world and you are just doing such an amazing job you know. I mean, you are just here, trying to help others and it is just so amazing - so, yep, in short, I do appreciate all that and you are definitely not useless and you are always welcome here! :)
Now...I mean this may be subjective but I think you are definitely loveable. I think you are such a caring, kind and, from what I can see here, beautiful person that I cannot imagine someone not loving you once they have got to know you a bit :)
Of course, I can understand that once you have got hurt and abbandoned it can really leave deep scars and I understand that it can really leave you feeling like this or even numb but I just wanted you to know all of this. i wanted you to know that I think you are just such an amazing person and I am really glad that I have got to know you here!
Also, you know, I am kind of that naive optimistic type, but I think there is always hope. I do believe it anyways, i do believe that you can get better and I do believe in you for sure! I mean, together we can definitely get through this and we all are here for you to work through this! ^-^
@redmark
Today is a really hard day and what you said means a lot. I have a lot of bad thoughts in my head today. Wanting to do things. Feeling like if I was gone nobody would care. So, thank you.
@practicalIdeal2007 I know that these times and holidays can be really hard but I want you to know that you are not alone here. No matter if you would like to share something or just sit here and not be alone, either way, I am here for you! *offering safe hugs*
Also, I am sure many others are as well! ^-^