"TW" The Trap
My mom and dad had a divorce when I was five she showed up to a babysitter's house and the babysitter's husband trapped her and chased her around the outside of her car my mom didn't have custody of my brother and I was trying to kidnap my brother and I at the time today the babysitter's husband is my hero and role model
I get excited when I go to my one job cause it is close to where my mom was trapped
@creativeStrings1531
Are there any other ways that you might consider dealing with your mom?
Not sure
@creativeStrings1531
Hi there. How are you feeling? Have you given any thought to my question? no pressure to answer, I was just curious. I get concerned about all the energy and practice time you spend waiting for the day you can trap your mom and run her around your car.
Building your self up just for this occasion. What you are doing is hard on the body and mind and I worry about you, and the possible outcome of this. I just only ask you to consider handling this in a different way if possible.❤️🙏🏽
It doesn't feel hard on my body and I look forward to the day when I can trap her and chase her around her car
I understand the outcome of it and the consequences
@creativeStrings1531
I know that the wounds go deep when we have been hurt very badly by someone we care about. You have suffered long enough, and I get the emotions that brew up like volcanic ash, wanting to pay them back for the damage they have done to us. I know I was hurting just you from my mom's abuse, but I still struggle with the scars and the triggers that torment me constantly.
However, it was only recently that I realized the power and control that I was feeding her to keep me trapped in a world of hatred and confusion. I suddenly realized that I was still allowing her to control me and my emotions. I still remember and will always remember what she done to me but I no longer have the urge to do harm or to get back at her. I can honestly say that I am free from the hate. I let go of the poison she had fed me all my life. I still have many issues, but that is one that I can now lay to rest.🙏🏽. I pray for you that our Powerful, Almighty Creator will do the same for you.
You were a mere innocent child when this happened, and now you have grown up, and the pain is so evident that it is infecting your ability to let her go and place her in the hands of the Creator, who will repay us for our deeds, good or bad.
I hope this does not hamper the relationship I am trying to establish with you. You are valuable and worthy to be Loved and validated. Life is short and we can not let our abusers win this battle, ❤️😊
My therapist told me to write down how I feel when I practice my routine
@creativeStrings1531
Hi, how do you feel?❤️
I feel good about this assignment
@creativeStrings1531
I am glad that you and the Therapist are working together and that you like the assignment she gave you😊. Looking forward to your next reply❤️
I am really enjoying my writing assignment that my therapist has me doing about how I feel as I do my practicing of standing against my front door and skipping around the outside of my car
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I am so glad you have a therapist helping you explore your workouts with her. What kind of work do you do? and what kind of car do you like to drive or that you would like to own someday?❤️🚗. I would like to own a two-seater sports car with a convertible top😊.
My therapist asked me how I would keep my mom I safe if I ever felt like I was going to really go through with trapping my mom and I told my therapist that I would take myself to the police I also am still working on my writing assignment
I did my writing assignment for my therapist and it felt good to do it and then she asked me how I was going to keep me and my mom safe if I felt like I was going to really trap my mom and I told her that I would turn myself into the police which I would feel more comfortable doing then going to a hospital
@creativeStrings1531
I am so proud of you😊❤️Great Job
