Nightmares come real
Hi umm I don't know how to say this. When I was younger my dad sexually abused me and I only managed to get away by living with my mum but since she died I got put in care and have been having nightmare of him hurting me. Recently I went out with my friends and after they all went home I was walking back to the care home and a man grabbed me from behind and pulled me away from the street. He started to hurt me and now I'm pregnant and don't know what to do. I got back to the care home and realised it was my dad and I couldn't breathe. My main carer asked what was wrong but I couldn't tell her because I was in shock. I still don't know what to do. I can't leave my room because I am so scared he is waiting for me.My carer knows now that he hurt me and she has been supportive but I just feel so lonely and like no one understands fully. I still get the nightmares of my dad but they are worse now. I just can't cope anymore. :'(
I am so sorry to hear, and you didn't deserve any of this! I don't know what it is like to be in you're position and I know things are easier said than done, but try and speak to your carer you may have already done so but if not explain how it has made you feel and how scared you are to leave your room let alone live your life normally without having to live in fear. Hopefully your carer should look for the best solution for you maybe help you to see someone about your nightmares if you agree because you don't deserve to live your life like this!
I've spoke to her a bit but not very good at expressing feelings.
i fully understand how you feel I struggle to express my feelings so I don't really. I wish I could really help you in anyway or form, seen as it is hard to express your feelings could you maybe write down how you feel and what you would like to say to her or type her an email because I know not having to tell someone to their face ho you are feeling I sometimes a little bit easier.
