Just a thought.
I feel like I deserve an apology at least just from my parents. Every day, I'm trying to make sense of this pain and imagining people actually apologizing to me for what they did, then it's only becoming an endless loop. I had to forgive people who didn't feel sorry, so I had to move on but I don't have that power. * I wish my parents apologized to me for how they treated me, they treated me so well but they always abandon my emotional needs as if it wasn't there to be taken care of. I wish my parents agreed to let me stay at home when I didn't want to go to school, I wish my parents care why my grades were so bad, I wish my parents hug me, I wish they asked what happened at school, I wish they care about my well being more than my attendance at school. These little things they could've done could've prevented me from being like this. It's been 3 years and I'm not healing. I'm so mad at my dad especially, he never said one thing about my feelings even the day I finally spoke out about my trauma. I'm hurting.
You know what we're on the same situation like my family never apologize to me and they treat me badly ever since. And I'm also mad about my family because they make me feel uncomfortable like for example l made a single mistake and thus they get mad quickly and my emotions don't matter in this household because they get mad every expression I do and afraid to speak out because they always nagging and always complain little things. Like I wish my family care about my mental health and realized they're mistake. And maybe your dad hasn't said one thing I think it's because he's guilty about that so yeah. But hey If you encounter problems with your family, Feel free to chat me okay? 🙂
I'm so sorry you had to live with that fear of expressing yourself, I wish I could hug you. I feel that way too, everyone just expects the only feeling I could have is joy, other than that they'll be upset and ignore me. Thank you for sharing your story, goes the same for you, leave me a message if you wanna talk. :)
I know this probably isn't what you want to hear cause it wasn't what I wanted to but the only thing I found to help me is to forgive and forget, my parents were always strict on us to the point of making my older sister run away and I didn't see her again for a year and she gave up her chance at college and my parents still won't admit they could've lessened up on her, some people are just so stubborn and so set on the fact that this is best for their children that they get blind to the real problems we're having, but I find if I just keep focusing on the past I couldn't get better and I didn't want to ruin my life over it so I just tried to forgive them for everything they did despite how much I cried and wanted run away and I just left it behind to forget it because it was in the past if that makes any sense, it took awhile for me and I'm still not fully over it probably but I kept trying and was able to slowly get better, it wasn't easy, they weren't there for me and they always made things harder and they told me their job is to raise me not be my friend but they were raised like that too so I'm just trying to forgive and forget it all and try to make sure I don't turn out like them in the future
No, thank you so much for sharing. I'm sorry that happened, I think we don't deserve this treatment and as adults, they should've known better. I'm glad you're in the process of forgiving them. I learned so much from my parents, I used to be wanna like them because I like how they raise me when I was a kid then when I get bigger, you know, then I realized they are so many things I don't wanna be. I've been at some points where I forget what hurt me that was caused by them, it was quite long to be honest but then when I'm alone I often meet with this angry feeling and sadness again. I hope you and your sister are okay.
I feel the same way Float. My parents still to this day will not look me in the eye and tell me they are sorry for the trauma they caused. Its been a hard road trying to be the bigger person and have an adult relationship with them. It gets heavy at times and most of the time I really just consider them my friends. I just look to the future when I have children and try and break the cycle. Try and make a difference in my life that they weren’t strong enough to do for me and my siblings. Thank you for sharing this post. You are definitely not alone in your feelings.
Thank you for leaving this comment right here, Lilith. I'm sorry, no one deserves this at all. I'm so saddened with seeing so many kids expecting their parents to be their heroes but was given another reality. I could only hope our wounds be healed slowly. I'm happy to hear about your dream and I hope you and your siblings are okay. Warm hugs to you. X