@Mashedpotato364 Hi there,
It’s interesting enough on how many parallels there are between the situation you had just described & what I have currently been battling with. It’s rough knowing that this could feel like the only person you thought could truly get you outside of how/what you feel & know about yourself personally which makes it tricky because you’d consider them reliable & trustworthy to the extent of what they’ve shown you but only because of how they showed up. Only to find out that all of a sudden, they can’t & won’t be able to show up in the same way which shatters us because we thought it would come to bring us the balance that we need to get back up on our feet yet.. now what, right? As I write this out now, I want to thank you for sharing because it’s helping me to understand & get through certain grievances that come on this particular matter. Where we ideally would love for someone to show up & display their love for us, they can disappoint by the lack thereof. The only thing that keeps me going is my relationship with God in how He shows up even when it seems least likely to happen in that we can keep crying, complaining and/or hurting about how disappointed we are about the outcome of things & in how much we were let down by them in expectation not knowing that He’s the one to come & show up instead. I say this not to push Him on you but to encourage you to try Him & give Him that chance to show you so that He can indeed heal your broken heart & bind up your wounds. It’s the only way I was able to rise up again to write this reply back to you. I’m not one to really like to talk or share so much but feeling led on how this spoke to my heart, I felt the need to share just for a bit & uncover my testimony of how He’s actively helping me to make it out of this rut. I realize very well that this is an old post from years ago but I pray that you’re able to come across this by the grace & tender mercies of God & that it may inspire & encourage you to draw yourself to Him. It really doesn’t take much to get His attention if you decide to try & speak to Him but because of you choosing to believe that He can show you that He’s not like man that He should lie. Just writing all of this out by faith has helped me see Him in this so again I say, thank you🤍
P.S.: Even if this wouldn’t be well received & accepted, I’ll respect it, move on & simply receive it as a reply/note from me to me🙌🏼