Tired of failing and now I just want healing.
I'm 33m and I am just at a point where I have no hope in life anymore and am absolutely unhappy in every possible way so I figured I would try 'healing' for the nth time due to having a small burst of productivity so I searched on google and found this app and here I am desperate for anything to shatter the shackles that are my routine, habits and depressive thoughts.
This is cheesy but I think of it constantly the quote
"He who fights with monsters might take care lest he thereby become a monster. And if you gaze for long into an abyss, the abyss gazes also into you. - Nietzsche" I feel like I stared too long and fell into the abyss but climbed my way back up to the precipice and never left always on edge never feeling safe or happy.
I was abused at a young age by familial figure and I joined this group specifically to seek answers on how it has affected them and how it can manifest as problems in their lives and what solutions they found that helped. I just want answers I have never really confronted this so not really sure on what though. 😕
Are you able to get therapy?
That is the plan however I have serious issues with leaving my house or talking to people and it usually interferes with ability to continue the treatment. I can usually manage the preliminary gp stuff then the first actual therapist appointment but something always gets in the way, like me conveniently having no sleep the night before and sleeping through an appointment or seemingly 'forgetting' the appointment etc. So I now have little hope for much in the way of treatment outside of my house. 😞
@GrayMind
What about online therapy? 7cups provides some. But I know there are also other practices that do that. Especially now post covid.
@GrayMind It sounds like you feel despair and trapped in your habits, routines, and depressive thoughts because of the abuse you endured in your childhood from someone you trusted. These resources may be helpful to you: https://www.7cups.com/depression-help-online/ https://www.7cups.com/traumatic-experience-help/ Feel free to message me anytime if you want to talk more about this. I hope you find peace and healing.
