it always happens
CPO2000
December 30th, 2022
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they say although you don’t remember the event your body does. so when a similar experience happiness your body remembers how you felt and acted which is why you panic shutdown become depressed anxious ect.
but i know my trauma. i know my problems. so why do i still act the same, why so i still hesitate when someone shouts. why do i clench my fist untill my nails dig so deep it hurts and that’s just because i hear a loud car. why do i cry when i’m in a tiny space, or in a car by myself.
surely i should be okay, i know what happened. so why can i not sort myself out. years of therapy and i’ve got no closer i feeling home, at peace with myself