Fearful avoidant attachment
I discovered my attachment style, fearful avoidant. It explains so so much . I am researching ways to trust and get past this so I can connect with people. This style is one of the rarer types caused by an abusive childhood. I desperately want deep connection all of my life but never could find it. It's taken me decades to even become aware of my issues. As painful as this is I am trying to fix this. Opening up about my feelings and needs is incredibly difficult as I was never taught that this was okay to do.
I had not realized that this was my problem not the people around me. I have been burned so many times by predatory type people over the years.
I'm still learning and I'm scared . This is so difficult to overcome.
My siblings are dealing with this same attachment style problem.
It is a grieving process realizing I've missed out on so much because of my deep self protection actions. I didn't even realize what I was doing .....
Wow more challenges to get through, hope I can do it. I have been through so many already.
ABB 💜
@amiableBlackberry92
Dear Blackberry,
you are not alone ❤️ same attachment style going on with me too.
I think it is already amazing that you are researching about this topic and learning more about your attachment style. Awareness and acceptance is the crucial step towards healing. I am sure that you will get to the point where you will be able to express your emotions and form your relationships just the way you would want them to be ❤️ I am also not still there yet, but slowly and progressivelly getting to it.
Sending you lots of hugs and support ❤️
@Sleepwalkermw
Thank you for responding so kindly. It helps to know I'm not alone. What a struggle, I'm sorry you have the same one. I need a lot of practice voicing my feelings. Especially in close relationships. I always feel so vulnerable and terrified I'm going to be judged or worse rejected.
I appreciate your encouraging words. 💜🤗
ABB