What is wrong with Charlie
what is so wrong with charlie that it has been ok for her family to treat her as they do, yes charlie is broken and doesn't work the way she should but maybe things could have been better if they noticed that sooner, if they cared instead of neglected, hurt, and abused, maybe she would have been less broken with some support. why is it ok for charlie to be hurt and treated like she is, even when she was little, to be degraded and treated as nothing and worthless, to be abused and hurt for even thinking something out of line or doesn't do what she is told or if she ever does/shows anything but what is expected. why is it ok for others to treat charlie similar to how her family does, is charlie really that insignificant and terrible. why is any of this ok? why is nowhere safe from this? it hurts so much and charlie is tired of hiding everything, all the things that have happened, all of what people have done to her, all of how she feels, everything that haunts her, all hidden inside painfully fighting to be heard by her. have no idea how to really ever say anything about any of it though cause how do you change so many years of trying so damn hard every moment to push things inside and hide it to survive, and so damn insecure about every tiny thing that any time do try end up flipping out panicked and vulnerable and get so scared people will say hurtful things or leave or whatever. so scared of losing control of that, of hiding things, and have been slipping up more and more lately as charlie feels she is falling apart and it is just getting her in trouble. don't know what to do anymore, everything hurts and feels like too much, even when charlie is disconnected and feeling empty. sorry
@ShatteredMentality
Hey there, Charlie! I read your post, and from what you've shared I can see that you are really hurting with past and recent events. Firstly, i'd like to say I am very sorry that you've ever had to endure any kind of pain or abuse. That being said, you question that how could it be okay that your family and other people in your life could treat you this way.
It's never okay for anyone to ever harm someone. There isn't a correct excuse why someone would harm anyone, and if anyone things it's okay, they are wrong. Sorry not to stay objective or neutral, but justifying someones actions for being abusive seems wrong. I don't know what these people have gone through to maybe impact their behavior towards you, but I hope somehow they realize their actions and focus on how it affects you.
I hope you find that 7cups is a safe outlet for you to share and vent out the feelings you've been suppressing all these years, and you're able to confide in someone here to support you. Please reach out any time you need someone.
@ShatteredMentality I wholeheartedly agree with everything that has been said so far and want to say how much i admire you for having been through so much and being the person you are. You are such a kind compassionate human being with so much strength! You don't have to hide anymore. At least not from those of us who care about you and want to be there fo you! It's not ok for people to harm and abuse you and it is ok for you to reach out for help and i'm so proud of you for doing so! You are amazing and deserve all the happiness in the world. I really believe you will get there becaue you've survived so far and you deserve it! I for one will be there for you as much as i can along the way and i know there are a lot of people on here who feel the same way.