The Witch Mother (Christine Ann Lawson Ph.D)
I've written before about me being in therapy. So I have started discussing my mother. I have gone no contact with her recently due to abuse. It's like she is a different person to who I remember. I can see what she is doing. Being controlling, aggressive or putting me down. I always used to say we were dysfunctional but I didn't realize or really accept the extent of the abuse. We are using this book to understand and heal from my childhood. To accept the trauma and go on a new trajectory. Have healthier attachment. However since that session I've been so sad. The emptiness I tend to feel and run from seems so large. It feels like it is taking me whole. Noone believes I was abused. We seem too middle class. Too normal on the outside. I feel so alone. Also, the traits she seems to have �are a bit on the sadistic side which is surprising to me but shouldn't be. But she has a turn. She is the " Good Mother." Then turns into this particular category. She always used to say to be kind and I think she believes she is. She isn't going to stop hurting me. My heart is broken. I know I'm on the right path. Healing and facing this. Trying to be here in the moment, but......this feeling. �
[Edited by @QuietMagic 11/20/21 to remove stigmatizing content]
