I'm sorry to hear about this, I really am. Things like this are horrible but the truth is there are worse dads out there. Yes that must have been horrifying, upsetting and awful as you're not used to it. But my father is truly the monster. Ever since I was a child he would beat my mother, he left her hanging on the roof one morning and tricked her into going up there. When they divorced he took me to courts behind my mothers back to try and gain custody of myself and my brother. As time went on we grew further and further apart. He would beat me, he told me if anyone ever asked where the bruses came from to say I fell down the stairs. I didn't realise till year 4 that what he was doing was wrong. Later in high school he tried to kill me, several times over. He even tried to kill himself just so he could get rid of me, (major car cash) and now... Not only does he abuse me mentally, physically and verbally but he turns everyone against me. I got to the stage where I was in a relationship and I missed the violence, I wanted my boyfriend to hit me, kick me till I passed out. Just so I knew he cared. How sick is that?