Traumatic Experiences Community Daily Check-In Wednesday June 27th 2018
Good morning/afternoon/evening everyone!! Today is June 27th, and if you've been following along, you know what that meeeeeaaaannnnsss!!! It's PTSD Awareness Day! So head on over to this thread right here and show off your creative masterpieces!
While I've got your attention, here's some stuff I came across that you all may find interesting! Some of these I've posted before, but some I haven't. 😊
Always remember to be gentle with yourself 💜
How was your day/is your day going?
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@BeeLeigh
I love those images. They both make me feel validated and infuriated at the same time. I'm actually diagnosed with both BPD and PTSD and I've been reading a lot about C-PTSD and how it is similar and different from BPD and the symptoms that overlap manifest in more of the C-PTSD way. I even saw something about how the misdiagnois and the way BPD is treated can actually make PTSD worse. The DBT skills help with both, but C-PTSD needs a trauma focused approach moreso. The things that pull someone with BPD out of a meltdown are different than what pulls someone with C-PTSD out of their attacks. Like I definitely think at one point I did have both diagnosis, but now I really don't think the BPD fits as much. The fear of abandonment is no longer an issue for me, actually I'm so tired of the abandonment, rejection and betrayal here that I want to move to another state because where I am is one giant PTSD trigger for me. I used to not have a good sense of identity but now I am confident, I know who I am, I know my strengths, and I know my life goals and they've been consistent for a while. My relationship issues aren't the idealization and devaluation thing, it's a fear of getting close and letting people in because I'm tired of being hurt again. I do idealize but I think that's more of people become my role models or I look to them to be parent figures because of attachment issues that formed from the neglect during my early developmental period. My impulsivity is mostly with money but even when it comes ot money I'm not that impulsive anymore because I can't be, and it was always more just looking for something to make me feel better. I've never had any other impulsive behavior except for self-harm (which brings me to the next point). I haven't physically self-harmed in almost 2 years (July 16 will be 2 years). I have had "suicide attempts" by OD, but even when I did that I knew it wasn't going to hurt me, but it would be enough to force the system to help me because if you're not actively suicidal or you haven't hurt yourself they just brush you off. I don't get suicidal unless I really feel like I have exhausted every option I can think of and no one else can offer any resources I haven't already try. I mean, try living 27 years in survival fight or flight mode and not have suicidal thoughts when you become afraid that it'll never get better because you don't want to live this way for the rest of your life because it took you 27 years to realize that you really are an awesome and valuable person when your basic needs and safety are met and that you have a lot to offer the world. Mood instability. My mood only changes when I start to panic and something triggers my flashback or emotions associated with my trauma and I can usually say what it is triggering and why. Chronic feelings of emptiness... that kind of comes with being in a small bedroom by yourself for days at a time and no one talking to you are wanting to make sure you're okay. The anger symptom, that didn't start until the past few months when I started getting frustrated that no matter what I do it's "wrong" and people started making my symptoms worse by treating me much like my dad did, and calling me manipulative because of my BPD and telling me I'm not using my skills because of things I do because apparently I dissociate now too, and that never happened until my PTSD symptoms got triggered and I was on stress overload for months. When people are telling you they can't help you because of things you do when you're dissociated, but they're trauma therapist's and dissociation is a symptom often caused by severe trauma, then what do you do? I also start to get paranoid when I'm hospitlaized or talking to professionals now because of how I have been treated by them since November. I didn't have those symptoms before. So yeah, I do have BPD symptoms, but they are also C-PTSD symptoms as well and only seem to happen when something triggers physical or emotional flashbacks... so either way it needs to be addressed as trauma. Sorry for my tangent. Just frustrated.
