Abandoned by my doctor
My psychiatrist/therapist (was not on any medications) abandoned me after five years based on a single line email from one of my alters. My doctor and I had what was a really good relationship except for with my protectors which she referred to as the "Guardians of the System." They wrote something that was misinterpreted by my doctor's husband, the co-director of The Center and he wrote me an email twelve hours into my vacation, across the country, on Christmas morning, with no resources, stating the therapy was effective but that this was an "Administrative" termination. Five years of contact with my doctor 3-4x/wk whether it be sessions, emails, brief check-ins. Termination had never ever been discussed. In fact, I have multiple emails from my doctor stating she would never abandon me and was understanding of my guardians and was working to understand the source of their anger. Furthermore, the referrals he made mean I would have to quit my job and move either to another part of the state or out-of-state. That is not reasonable. I don't know what to do. I need to speak with my doctor and h wont let me.
@littlelubin
Do your doctors know about your alters? Would explaining what happened be helpful? I can understand this might be causing stress and anxiety.
(also if you are looking for a listener with knowledge on DID/OSDD, my pm's are open!)
@HelaHeals Thank you. My doctor does know and when she emails us (2x/wk) for check in she actually addresses parts o/f the email separately. It's her husband, who is the co-director of the trauma center who is saying this is administrative and that the therapy was working. Also, that week we had acted very unusually - should have sent up red flags that something was very off. Her husband keeps insisting he is right in the interpretation of our words and refuses to see the truth. I don't think he ever liked me because his wife, my doctor of five years, liked me so much. In an email from him three years ago when we were discussing financial arrangements, he wrote that she suffered very deeply because of my pain. I have carried that with me ever since. Because of the extensive written dialog between me and my doctor and alters and my doctor I have been able to put together information to show the truth but he flatly ignores it to pursue his own agenda. I did schedule a consultation, not therapy, with an ethics expert for clarity. Not sure I'll keep the appointment though. It's expensive. This is so confusing. I have s may emails from my doctor explicitly stating she would not abandon me/us.
