Maybe Iām stretching too farā¦ idkā¦ but Iām not a doctor or anything close to it.
I have C-PTSD from medical trauma. Not associated with any specific illness, but because of the way my interactions with medical personnel went through when I was youngerā¦ then later on my pre-teens being forced to make frequent invasive procedures that I definitely was not ready for. (I have a narcissistic hypochondriac mother).
Today I canāt even look at any doctor in the eye, I have severe panic attacks in clinics, I ran away from the ER multiple times.
Itās not a āmoney issueā because health care is free in my country but I have no kind of preventive care or what so ever because I avoid doctors as much as I can. I usually let my body deal with whatever it can fight on its own. I only go to doctors when Iām ādyingā or losing a limbā¦ itās frustrating. I just let my husband do all the talking for me.
But!
Iāve been watching some doctors YouTube channels lately and Iām feeling a little bit safer around doctors. Itās a long way to establish any kind of real trustā¦ but I feel itās possible.
So I believe that an area here on 7cups dedicated to medical personnel could also benefit more people who are dealing with medical trauma as well as the doctors and health care providers.
Just to clarify: I donāt hate doctors. Iām terrified of any health care provider. Iām soooo so so sorry š¢ I know your work is super important and selfless. You sacrifice so much to do your job. People like me probably make your day harder. Thatās why Iāve been lately having my husband to do the talking for me.