Cumulative damage

I woke up early this morning having another panic attack not sure where I was. I've posted a few times here. The problem is that there's a big gas lighting effect on EMS and mental health. The people who akgnowledge it do it in all the wrong ways causing more psychological destress to people who run some horrible stuff for a living. Yesterday a genuinely concerned person said this: "So you're a paramedic huh?" Me: "yeah" her: "you must see some horrible car accidents then, huh?" Me: "....uh yeah." Her:"how do you cope with that?" Me in my head: "drink hard and avoid talking to people like you." Outloud: "as well as one can ma'am." It's hard not to think about them after those kinds of questions.