Meth
I feel like such a hypocrite. I grew up watching family members lose everything because of it. When I was younger, I always said "I'm never doing that. I won't let it ruin my life." But today, I can't say that. I'm broke because of it. I stay up all night alone with my thoughts. It's made my depression & anxiety worse. I used to have such a clear complexion, now my skin is all bumpy and red. I've done things I'm ashamed of just to get high. I've lost an unhealthy amount of weight just in a few months. Everytime someone tells me I've lost weight, I get paranoid that they know I'm on it. I tell myself I won't do it anymore, but whenever there's some around, I always do some. I hate it, but I keep finding myself coming back for more. I don't even recognize the girl staring back at me in the mirror. I don't want to do it anymore.
@Sheislove21
its an ugly battle Ive been fighting for so long some how I learn to control myself n not let the drug control me addiction is ugly and not all is addicts need rehab just got support n keeping the faith you can do it keep the faith
@Sheislove21
I'm currently recovering from a meth addiction
@magicallySunshine53 I am also recovering from meth addiction. Im on day 1...again, but I know that giving up is not an option. I dont want the life of an meth addict that stopped fighting.
I wish you all the best in strong sobriety today!
@ScaredSaint
im on manth 4 off of meth, but im on day 0 from the speed pills
@Sheislove21 I understand exactly where youre coming from! I too am trying to get off it. Actually Im now 17 hours and 8 minutes since I flushed my stash about 20 hours since I used. The high and energy are gone but the anger at myself is keeping me awake.... barely.
My marriage is all but destroyed, my mind isnt reliable anymore, my depression is way worse, the list goes on and on.
Im rooting for you, wish me luck this time works.... it has to
@PunkyBrewster83 congratulations on facing the crucial very important and equally aa hard, first steps to getting a life back again......a real life, free from such evil and darkness. Unfortunatley and as you are well aware, it is often worse than anything getting to the place you need to be but hold on to that determination and willpower that shines so strong from your post. You are doing so much better than you realise and honestly the 'action' part is over....now it is about holding on and against all odds; riding out the storm that has been over your days to leave in the distance forever. In turn, with this, you can start to rebuild and reinvent all that is waiting for you in a world meant for your future xxx keep strong and would love to chat anytime. I too struggle.
