I feel so lost. i want to get help. Advice and opinions?
I’m been struggling with weed addiction for around a year or longer now. i’m 16.
I have had breaks in between throughout when flying to a different country but as soon as i’m back home i’m on it again. 3 times a day. maybe even more; whenever the feeling wears off.
This weekend i finally found the strength to quit weed and turned to alcohol instead for two days. Now i’m two days clean from everything and i feel like i’m spiraling out of control and i haven’t been doing anything but simply floating. I feel empty. I desperately want to get the professional help needed because i know something is wrong with me.
In order for me to get this help however, i have to bring it up to my parents.
I don’t want that because they’ve never really been the supportive type.
I feel so isolated and alone and scared and i feel like this pattern of getting better then getting worse, it’s never going to stop. I know it will but why does it feel like everything is ending?
@vidia00
It is a good thing to realize you have an issue and need help. That would include being open with your parents and you might be surprised the response may not be what you assume.
It is often in life that items we keep secret and do not share that when we do .... things are not the way we expected. When we wait and keep secrets the longer we go the more awkward it becomes not only to explain the issue but why we kept our issue secret.
With your age where are you getting alcohol/ weed? especially if using steady and often. Whomever is getting you these items is NOT helping you...
In my country these items are very easy access, which makes the temptation of not getting them harder. Hope that explains it.
@toughTiger6481 For more context, my parents were and still are abusive- more verbally than physically now that i’m older. Whenever i talked about my feelings i would be shut down so i hope you can understand where my hesitancy is coming from! But i really appreciate the advice and the different perspective! I will keep that in mind thankyou.
@vidia00
In many place it is not as easy to access.. at least in the country i live.
While I get each case is different I have been witness to many people including myself that had to confess difficult things to a parent and more often or not the reaction was NOT what I expected from past behaviors of those parents.
If you think you can work through yourself what is the reward of using substances being numb?
To me that is missing out on better things. Most substances have damaging effects especially when used a lot ...is it worth problems/ health issues down the road ...