A little about me and my backstory

I am going to be celebrating 1 year clean on April 30th. I've battled with meth and alcoholism in the past, as well as chronically using everything I could in my younger years. Then when I had kids that came to a stop. However, 12 years ago I was in an accident, and my doctor put me on oxycontin. I was on that for 3.5 years. However when my doctor got in trouble for over prescribing narcotics, I among many others were cut off cold turkey. Never once was I told addiction or dependency were a risk, never once was the term withdrawal even used. I legit thought I was dying. Looking for help, when someone I knew told me what was happening to me... that day was the first time I ever did heroin, and that was also the point at which my entire life fell apart. I could not manage my use with herpin, it was so out of control so fast. And with my previous medical work history, injecting was easy for me, and the most cost effective method. I lost everything, my job, my house, my kids, myself. I tried getting g clean many time to no avail. I would have short periods clean using suboxone but never lasted long. Then about 3.5 years ago, fentanyl took over heroin, you couldn't even get heroin here If u tried. So my addiction turned into fentanyl addiction. Let me tell you, I thought heroin was hard OMG trying to get off fentanyl was unlike anything I've ever experienced and I almost died during detox. And would have had I not been admitted to the hospital. Anyways, I tried and tried and tried but couldn't get clean, until one day, for the first time in my life, i overdosed. It took 4 doses of narcan over the course of 9 minutes to get me breathing on my own again. And the struggles I faced after the fact due to brain hypoxia were even worse. Needless to say, (long story short) I did what I had to do to get clean. Regardless what it took. And here I am, with just shy of an entire year clean from EVERYTHING. It isn't easy, and tbh, sobriety for me is more often than not, miserable because I have co occurring mental health stuff (CPTSD and GAD) and all of that hit me 10 fold... so learning to manage sober has been anything but easy for me. Everyone keeps telling me it will get better and I hope it does. But I can say this, I'm grateful for not waking up dope sick, I'm grateful that I have money to use on things I need or want versus being broke all the time and having to pawn everything just to get well. I have my kids back in my life, and I'm slowly getting there, one day at a time.