Vent

I haven't been doing well lately in studying.. been cheating on my study schedule and doing just the bare minimum since 1month now.. I have been just a shadow of my real self since 1.5yrs now but no more.. any situation thrown upon me is no excuse from my side.. I could have dealt with them better.. i could have kept my ego aside and did really well.. i chose to NOT.. but i will work so well this year that I will prove that decision of mine right.. and set an example for all those people like me whi aren't ready to settle for anything less than they believe they are capable of... I will be back to my best soon very soon.. tomorrow itself.. I am taking a break from few social media apps.. Pre-downloading videos and clearing backlogs subject by subject soon.. I already have it covered in two subjects just tge other 2 i m behind.. I have to practice well the things I have studied up untill now too.. I will do that.. solve questions from my institute's study material as well as my own book also..to anyone who is reading this.. Trust me i m gonna do it.. Tomorrow embarks a new beginning.. I have already kept myself away from some bad habits for more than a week.. i know i can do it.. I am mentally in a better zone than before.. I won't let go of this situation.. I am doing physical exercises too whenever i find time.. to keep myself in good shape.. but I still eat high calorie foods i don't think i can get rid of my love for them anytime soon.. but i m burning them too.. I will do well I will not disappoint myself and my parents.. I will silence all my haters one day.. I m gonna do that.. One day i will have everything i have ever dreamt for.. and for that day to come i m gearing up from tomorrow itself.. I have to go out of station tomorrow for some chore too but that's no excuse i will still finish up my Goals.. Please pray for me to get back to my best.. as i pray all of us too achieve our goals.. Thank you.. I just wanted to share it with people who won't judge me as well as knowing you all know it now so to not do what i say would mean disappointing you all too.. and i won't disappoint anyone..not anymore..