I'm worried about my freshman applications as well as my entire college journey

This might be a lengthy post, but I just wanted to let my thoughts and feelings out here. I am currently on the last year of high school and basically, this year would be so important to me. Why? Because it's time to determine which university I'd be applying for my tertiary education. The thing is, though my home country (Philippines) had some good schools, my ultimate desire is to study abroad. I have recently taken an entrance exam to one of the universities I tried applying for and another would be scheduled next year. It seems that my parents have decided to just keep me and would most likely urge me to take my degree here instead, although it opposes to the plans my heart was set on. Speaking of studying abroad, I wanted to continue my studies in Canada. Unfortunately, looking at my situation, it seems impossible to reach my dreams. We weren't that wealthy, my parents didn't want me too separated from them, and I'm too stupid to be independent. I have been working hard to improve myself in that aspect, but what's been happening to me has been clear....there will be a high chance that I will never pursue the degree I love in another country, which is disheartening.

I always pray that there would still be a tiny chance of it turning into a reality. I always hoped that one day, I would make up into my own incapability to make it happen and the tables would soon be turned.