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P3pperm1nt
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PathStep 5 Compassion hearts164 Forum posts9 Forum upvotes18 Current upvotes18 Age GroupAdult Last activeNovember, 2024 Member sinceJune 6, 2021
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I'm worried about my freshman applications as well as my entire college journey
Student Support / by P3pperm1nt
Last post
 November 9th
...See more This might be a lengthy post, but I just wanted to let my thoughts and feelings out here. I am currently on the last year of high school and basically, this year would be so important to me. Why? Because it's time to determine which university I'd be applying for my tertiary education. The thing is, though my home country (Philippines) had some good schools, my ultimate desire is to study abroad. I have recently taken an entrance exam to one of the universities I tried applying for and another would be scheduled next year. It seems that my parents have decided to just keep me and would most likely urge me to take my degree here instead, although it opposes to the plans my heart was set on. Speaking of studying abroad, I wanted to continue my studies in Canada. Unfortunately, looking at my situation, it seems impossible to reach my dreams. We weren't that wealthy, my parents didn't want me too separated from them, and I'm too stupid to be independent. I have been working hard to improve myself in that aspect, but what's been happening to me has been clear....there will be a high chance that I will never pursue the degree I love in another country, which is disheartening. I always pray that there would still be a tiny chance of it turning into a reality. I always hoped that one day, I would make up into my own incapability to make it happen and the tables would soon be turned.
I'm worried about my future.
Student Support / by P3pperm1nt
Last post
 May 29th, 2023
...See more I had just finished my junior years, now incoming senior year. I'm okay with the new school I'm going for currently, but what I'm anxious about is where I'm spending my college years. I've been overhearing my mother talking about spending my tertiary level of education here in the place where I lived all my life, But my plans are different. I wanted to get out of my comfort zone and study in Canada, learning how to live independently. Unfortunately, my mom doesn't trust me about being independent and want me to be kept here in my country under their roof. I was really worried that I might lose my chance with continuing my studies in another country, I am losing the hope of fulfilling my dream. As much as I want to, it seems impossible to me. Reasons would be me being too irresponsible and stupid to try new things and doing what I ought to do. my parents, especially my mother, seems like she doesn't believe in me; keeps calling me words that makes me lose my self-esteem, and that keeps me discouraged. What should I do? :((
From Consistent to Nothing
Student Support / by P3pperm1nt
Last post
 July 28th, 2022
...See more I'm disappointed to myself. I didn't make it to the honors list this year. This is all my fault... I'm a disappointment in this family. I just wanted to cry so bad in an empty room, this is like the end of me. I wish I never existed. I used to be a consisted honor student but now it's all nothing. I'm sure my parents are disappointed in me.
A Ruined Christmas
Family & Caregivers / by P3pperm1nt
Last post
 December 25th, 2021
...See more Merry Christmas everyone! Well not that merry for me... It was supposed to be a lively Christmas... But the vibe was all ruined, thanks to my mom. I got a lot of hurtful and shameful words from her just because I can't do simple tasks right. How am I supposed to learn with all the yelling? I would've done it right in a proper way of teaching. That's why I learn everything all by myself, because I don't wanna hear another words from her of from my dad anymore. She is also a religious person, well actually, an OVER religious person. Even though she reads the bible and sing worship songs and attends church services (I'm a born again), her ways of living are still the same. Nothing ever changes on her. We even attended a family retreat from our church, but she is still the same as before. She also forced me to join in a religious youth community, hoping that I would "share the gospel" after her, But I don't feel like it, I had dreams too. I'm sorry if a religious person comes here, I just wanted to share my recent feelings. I've got nothing against God or Jesus, or the religion. So please don't attack me.
From ME, to HER
Family & Caregivers / by P3pperm1nt
Last post
 September 19th, 2021
...See more I had a really bad childhood. Before I was used to be socially outted, bullied, and get yelled at by my parents because of the simple things I can't do or they are sick of how stupid I am and calls me "You don't have a brain" and "Use your dang mind" all over up until now. This time, my sister nearly gets the same treatment with my mom especially my dad. I know it's important being disciplined, but getting her intimidated by him is just too much. Today it also happened, and she was trying not to cry because dad keeps passing where she is. I feel really bad looking at her since I understand how she is going through as I felt the same way. We used to like having dad around the house (He's working as a seafarer) before but now we don't because it adds up another problem to our mental health issues, which is not helpful at all. How should we deal with these? What can we do?
I'm Sick of this Situation
Family & Caregivers / by P3pperm1nt
Last post
 June 24th, 2021
...See more So this one has been going on for years already. I don't know if I am just "overreacting" about my parents and grandparents' way of disciplining me and my younger sister but they frequently bring their words overboard to the point that it already hurts a lot for me. I know everybody needs proper discipline but this harsh way of toxic parenting makes me have a lot of issues to myself. I started doubting in everything I do just to check if I did one thing good so my parents can be happy, I lost all my confidence and strength through toxic words they threw at me, and I can't think straight because of all the negative thoughts crowded all together in my head which leads for me not being my own self. Always in gaze. When they notice this and ask what's wrong with me, I just kept silent. I wanted to tell that it was them who made me like this but I can't. Now that my little sister is slowly experiencing this, I am worried about her and her mental sate. I don't want her to suffer the way I did. What should I do?
Struggling to Reach my Dreams
Student Support / by P3pperm1nt
Last post
 June 8th, 2021
...See more Hi everyone! I am currently in 8th grade this year and one semester left and school is over. I am happy thinking about this but I wasn't motivated to do any of my school works because of frequent anxiety attacks plus depression. I have a big dream of continuing my studies in the US for college in the future but It's hard to keep myself motivated to do my best at school. And since everyone's been doing classes online, it's a really big struggle for me since I wasn't used to it. I really don't like homeschooling because I get easily distracted. But I knew I had to move forward to keep reaching my goals. Any advice for dealing with distractions while doing online classes?
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