Following The Path

@GoldieFish

Thank you for your contribution, I have really enjoyed reading what you've said and in all honesty - it's inspired me to keep going with my university, it's frustrating but you're right 4 years is not a long time. It'll be over before I know it!

Good luck to both us! I'm super glad to know i inspired you and i sincerely appreciate your replies! Let's keep fighting and get that diploma!

Update 2

It's been a year since I posted this message on this app.

I'm already in my 2nd year of College.

A lot of thing has happened and I can't ready share them in detailed since it is something I want to keep to myself.

However, all of them made me what I am today.

Today, I am writing this message because a year ago I was helpless. I don't know what to do.

Looking back, I was really brave to face all my fears which lead me to being more confident on myself.

In my first of college, I was pretty popular and it really amaze me because for some reason a lot of people noticed me. I was happy but I didn't let it go on my head.

I choose another path which is to abandoned that fame because my priority is to finish my study not to basked myself with temporary glory.

I met a lot of people, who praise me and were against me. Fortunately, I avoided a lot of dramas because I pretty much don't care if I am included or not because I have learned that you cannot force people to accept you.

I also realized how blessed truely I am. I may lack friendships but my family adores me unconditionally.

Life isn't perfect. There are days my professors would praise me endlessly and days where they will humilate me for not being knowledge enough, for not knowing everything, for not being enough.

Regardless, I never allow myself to ran away from my problems. Even if I am being ridiculed for not being able to meet the expectations.

I also learned how to create bounderies. Bounderies is bad if you don't want to be isolated but I choose that path because it makes me happier and peaceful.

I am standing confidently, with or without someone by side.

I am standing confidently, even if I am being notice or ignored.

I am standing confidently, even if I am being complimented or criticize.

And the good news is..... All of my "I would be more" was fulfilled!

I have to make sure that I will never lose my path again.

I'll post an update again maybe in my 3rd year? I didn't manage to share what happened on my 1st year since it is full of ups and downs but it is a good start of my college life.

See you again if there is a chance:)