@GlenM
Hi Glen. Thank you for this update. It's really nice for me to see you committing to be involved more closely in site operations and communicating with the community regularly.
I started as a member here about 2 1/2 years ago. As someone who does not have a support system offline, this site has been a crucial part of my healing journey. I eventually decided to help give back as a listener and community volunteer. I have enjoyed the roles I've held here, as I feel giving back has helped me connect and process my own pain further.
I have not been very vocal during all the changes that have happened around the community recently. However, I have been observing on my own reading the announcements and replies, as well as supporting some members who have been affected by the changes. Though I did not engage in many of the chatrooms personally, I remember reading many posts from others for years mentioning issues with the environment and asking for change. Like many others I felt affected by the removal of the Feed, and I am looking forward to learning more about its replacement soon. I know there are many different views and feelings involved with change, all of which are valid and have meaning. I also agree personally that change can be a good opportunity to reset and start over, and I was glad to see you say that still knowing this doesn't necessarily make the change easier. I have found that sometimes how we go about implementing that change is just as important as the thing we are changing itself.
Thank you for sharing your strategy on the OKRs. I have completed the survey to the best of my ability.
I also appreciate you asserting your boundaries of how you would prefer to be addressed with regard to suggestions and feedback. I have tried to do this for you in my post here. I would like to very respectfully suggest that you still consider being open to feedback that is given outside this sandwich method as well. Since this is not just any social media platform, but one specifically dedicated to supporting some of the most vulnerable in our society with a wide variety of mental health struggles, I hope there is some understanding that this is not always going to be possible. I think there is a reason we provide self-help guides, links to articles, topic-specific discussions to learn new coping methods... because most of us here are not proficient with them yet. It can be very difficult to emotionally regulate 100% of the time when we have been triggered, whether we realize it or not. There are all kinds of situations that may cause someone to feel re-traumatized, unsafe, or unsettled. I'd like to also suggest that we all here should make ourselves knowledgeable of the site guidelines before we start debating what we do and don't like, while being allowed to express our hurt and be heard. There is never a situation where anyone - member, listener, or leader - should have to tolerate abuse. However, sometimes expressions of hurt even within the guidelines can also be received as hurtful understandably; I think in those situations we have to use extra caution when exercising subjectivity about how to handle each situation.
In all honesty, I am a bit concerned about the separating of people into groups based on whether they offered encouraging sentiments vs. less-helpful feedback. I do relate to what you shared about the style of delivery making it difficult to hear the feedback, and I'm also glad you believe there are good intentions. I find the sandwich method helpful in a general context and am appreciative of its use. I really just want to make sure we aren't excluding, shaming, or ostracizing those who may be new, are not aware of those techniques or go back to read every forum post like this to learn them, or have had natural reactions to things that affect them and don't automatically think of the best coping method.
Based on my observations over the last couple weeks, I have identified 2 main areas of concern:
1) I know there have been reasons given for the site changes, so I do not wish to rehash old conversations. But during all the back and forth, I understood that both changes were in the works for quite some time. My Takeaway: The general community feeling is that most people would like to have more transparency, communication, and notice regarding changes that are being discussed - at a minimum once they reach the stage of official decision and planning. (I don't know what the reasons are that most communications are preferred to be within 1-1 PMs here, but my personal opinion is that open communication could reasonably be achieved without having to go into too much detail that might sacrifice any proprietary business information. Whether a change is decided by management or up for a community vote, either way I think communicating that can help prevent much conflict.)
2) At first, most of the replies from leadership were only to the opinions that supported the changes (which I have noted in other threads before and after this situation as well). I know that criticism can be hard to digest sometimes, but in my opinion that's something we need to be able to hear before we take on a leadership role. I've seen that over the last couple weeks, in response to the large backlash, there were some attempts made to reply to more of those posts, including some of the ones not in support of the changes. Some replies let the authors know that they were heard and it was understood why they were upset. Others gave varying reasons for why the decisions were made or how long the changes had been planned, some of which conflicted with one another depending which leader responded. Still others seemed to suggest that everyone should have somehow already seen these things coming (though this still doesn't account for people who just joined the site recently or the fact that the last communications said the feed was staying albeit unsupported), that some polite expressions of feelings were unconstructive, or that members should be expected to act professionally. (Side Note: I've gathered that there may be a disconnect between the guidelines of general respect and kindness for all members/listeners/leaders, vs the professionalism expected of only the paid employees and volunteers who represent the website. I can't really see why members - i.e., the customers - would be expected to be professional, as they are not expected to in any other business or platform. Most of what we're talking about is grey area subject to individual interpretation.) At the time of my post here, I'm not sure if all the folks who expressed opinions have been replied to or not. My Takeaway: People do not respond well to feeling unheard, invalidated, or minimized, and this often has the effect of further perpetuating conflict, especially when coming from authority figures. (I also understand that sometimes we can make our best efforts and sometimes still end up with minimal oversights and miscommunications because of human error, or still see perpetuated conflict if the other party is unwilling.)
Some additional observations:
- I think that many of those in both paid and volunteer leadership positions did try to respond with empathy and understanding; however, some did not. There seemed to be gaps in communication, with differing messages being delivered. At the same time, I also believe that some leaders have been unfairly treated or all lumped in together during the chaos.
- Unfortunately, for me a key point in this conflict was when messages started coming out from top site administration. I do feel that some empathy, validation, and understanding was offered in some ways, but then it was also followed up with heavy emphasis on the "free" nature of this website, which I interpreted as implying that people should accept something as-is even if it harms them just because it is offered for free, or their opinions should be disregarded and they should leave. I can understand the logic behind this statement to a certain extent, as I believe this is your business and should be run the way you ultimately decide, and capitalism says that we customers can choose to do business with whomever we like. However, there's also language thrown around regularly (even in this post) about this being a community, working together, and asking for feedback/suggestions... which in my mind means that there is a democratic view somewhere in there as well. I think there may be some confusion as to where the line falls between "business" and "community". Also, it simply doesn't feel like a warm and welcoming leadership stance. I think perhaps a statement like this could have been made after a conflict had been going on unconstructively for a couple weeks, where all other options were exhausted (and still as kindly as possible). But in my opinion, saying that in the very first message that we'd seen from you Glen in some time - I must admit - I felt a little disheartened and deflated.
- Subsequent threads have asked for only positive comments, with a side note that any negative comments are seemingly being kindly tolerated in the old threads only. I do honestly agree that we want to strive to stay within site guidelines, to maintain a respectful environment and be kind to one another. I do not think there is any place in a healthy debate for name-calling and such. But I have also witnessed polite posts called out because they were expressing emotions instead of solutions. I must ask, what is the point of soliciting feedback if the only feedback points toward the choice that's already been made?
- I have heard members say that this resulted in them feeling "silenced". This is a very scary thought, and not one that is new to me. I must say, all the dialogue I've seen has left me with this feeling as well, even when I can see many of the reasons for the changes. There is a reason I have not offered my thoughts until now, and the prospect of posting this is terrifying me somewhat. This website is all about getting support where people are already being marginalized, labeled, stigmatized, and ostracized regularly in their daily lives. I really think the utmost care should always be taken to avoid making people feel punished for their emotions like they so often are everywhere else. I keep reading that this is supposed to be a "safe" space from all that, even though I personally don't think we should utilize that word.
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I would like to share a story that is difficult for me. I recently decided to take a self-care break as a listener. I had been thinking on it for a long time, unsure and putting it off for a number of reasons, and eventually it ended up taking a toll on me because of some recent major life changes I'm going through. When I finally made the decision, I informed my members that morning, and after hearing back from those I speak with regularly, I clicked the self-care button later that evening. Later, it occurred to me that I hadn't given these members much notice at all - to be able to get some last things off their minds, to make arrangements to connect with another listener, to prepare their own self-care, etc. There are also some members who do not log on often and we chat irregularly, who I didn't hear back from before I left... so for all I knew, the next time they'd sign on and see me gone, they might actually think they had done something wrong to make me leave or just felt abandoned. Even though I thought I was considering others, and knowing it was ok to also focus on myself, I really felt awful when I realized this. Incidentally, I am someone who thrives on change, and sadly I never even thought that others might need more time or would look at the situation differently.
This reminds me so much of the conflicts going on here recently. When I decided to be a listener, I accepted the responsibility of being empathetic and considerate of others - just as deciding to run a mental health website would mean special considerations must be taken to the vulnerabilities of the community. I gave same-day notice of a big change that would have significant effects for others, just as same-day notice was given for changes to the chat room format or removal of the feed where people connected with others they sometimes didn't talk to in other places around the site, posted their progress and personal thoughts, and shared inspirational quotes and things with one another. I did not consider all the effects to people who don't log on regularly or were on self-care break themselves, just as these same people may have been shocked to learn of the feed and chat room changes.
When I came back to talk to my members, I did not tell them that if they didn't like it they were welcome to go somewhere else. I didn't tell them how they were allowed to phrase things to me (though of course inherently my boundaries include staying reasonably within site guidelines). I didn't tell them to only give me positive or constructive feedback. I told them that they were allowed to feel how they were feeling about it, that I understood, and that I owned my mistake. I told them that their emotions were important to me and I wanted to hear what they have to say, because I honestly do. I still feel tremendous guilt, but I am trying to use it to help me to be more conscientious in the future, to fuel healthy changes for my life and how I relate with others. I share this story, risking judgment and criticism - because I don't want to write you from a hypocritical or self-righteous stance - because I'm hoping a wider lesson can be learned from it all.
I do not wish for this to come across as me judging anyone or telling you how to run your website. I am smart enough to know that there's no way I could hold together a place like this. I do not have the resourcefulness to start one up in the first place, the business knowledge to manage people and finances, the educational background in the subject matter, or even the ability to handle all the differing opinions and criticism you undoubtably face on a daily basis. I understand that no matter what decisions are made here, there's always going to be a percentage of people who are upset by it. No one solution is going to work for everyone. I know this is a long message, and I apologize. But if this is the only sentence out of it you read, I want it to be that: The decisions, the rules, the features - can always be discussed further and changed... but communication and trust - sometimes we only get one chance at that.
Thank you so much for your time and consideration in reading my post. I'm grateful for this place you have created, for all the time and energy our paid and unpaid staff put in to run it, and for all the wonderful members who have made this the site I have continually chosen to return to. You are most definitely in my thoughts and best wishes.
~ wizeakre