3 Key Things!

Made the Vim Hof breatihing exersise.

Took the cold shower.

Walked for an hour in the wind..

Basically been grateful for what I have and tried to flow with it, leaving the wolrd and its worries to take care of themselves. Sometimes our minds are our gratest enemies.. :)

1. I participated in a discussion in the Support Room

2. A friend was telling me how they are having some emotional struggles and they ended up making an account on here too and they said its helping.

3. I took a long walk and did mindfulness.

Ate a cookie

Painted a picture

Had an english lesson

Hi. New here. Been stuck at home. Went for a walk today. It's really nice outside.

Well, I need a little extra soul nourishing lately. I've really been struggling with anxiety and feelings of worthlessness, so I figured posting here about three things I've done that have helped, even just a little bit, to pull me from my depressive rut.

1. I had a little bit of a relaxing, self-care night for myself. I snuggled up under the covers, had a cup of my favorite tea, colored and watched a favorite tv show on my laptop to unwind after a particularly rough day.

2. I go on TikTok often, and become different characters when I feel like it. I made a character for a friend's tag and had a lot of fun with the makeup and the character.

3. I went to my chiropractor to get aligned when I started having a tension headache and it made me feel better.

I really want to get out of this horrible depressive fog, so the fact that I got any of this done is impressive to me.

Today I managed to:

Finish some work

Learn a new song on my ukulele

Read some more of my book

Today so far:

Made a breakfast smoothie

Worked out

Worked on biology notes

I m so happy I have joined you guys ,I m so happy I can do something useful from home during this hard time

I m enjoying the atmosphere here

I actually had my first conversation today ,I was stressed ,but it was okay

1. Put on real pants instead of pajamas.
2. picked up my package

3. drank water!!!

I have chronic pain so that's huge dor

me. Maybe later I'll shower!

@GlenM

To be completely honest, the best thing I've done for the last couple of months was limit how much I accepted chat requests. I have spent the last 9 months (give or take a century... That's how it was starting to feel) trying to find a new psychiatrist. Both my therapist (of 10 years) and my psychiatrist (of 7 years), had to leave the practice within a few months of each other because my therapist's husband was almost killed in a car accident and needed her, while my psychiatrist had to move back to the other side of the country because her parents are dying and she needs to be there. To be honest, though, as someone with borderline personality disorder, I feel sort of abononded (I know that sounds beyond selfish, and trust me, I hate myself for feeling like that). In a way, I have been grieving, and still am. In that time I have found technically 3 new psychiatrists. The first one was great, but my therapist was uncomfortable treating someone with BPD, so that didn't last long. The second tried taking away 2 of my medications upon meeting me because they are controlled (I've been on one since I was 16, and the other on and off since 10).I understand the need to prescribe responsibly, but he wasn't writing a new prescription, he was keeping me on the regimen that's kept me mostly stable for about 6 years. I haven't met the third, yet, I will next week, I'm praying that this one will actually acknowledge my existence (the 2nd one doesn't really let me talk.. Apparently he can't think), and actually takes the time to get to know me, and read my file (the other 2,didn't even want me to sign a release for them to acquire it), and then includes me in the discussion regarding treatment. I had planned on becoming a psychiatrist, but had to drop out before medical school because of my physical health. However, I still went long enough to be included. My previous doctor respected the knowledge I had from school, but also knew that I without a doubt knew myself.

So that's number 1, basically I wasn't in the proper mindset and I didn't want to cause harm, rather than help. I have, however, checked in with my groups, it's cathartic.

Number 2 is the amount of times I try and draw attention to it, especially for people who are skeptical, but unwilling to commit to a therapist, regularly. A few have reached out and told me they realized from talking to someone on here, that they felt safe and comfortable enough to get psychiatric treatment. They were worried about being judged, and when they encountered the opposite, they were encouraged.

Number 3 is still ongoing (I am sorry that my "help" has been, I don't know most likely not). I signed up to take NAMI's peer to peer class. Unfortunately, with the pandemic, I am pretty sure times will have to changed. I realized how much I love when the person I'm talking to, thanks me and tells me that I genuinely helped. I know the world is nuts and terrifying, well generally, but especially now. I also know that mental health is likely to be pushed aside in order to help the people who are physically dying and sick. It's understandable, but that's also the reason 7 Cups is necessary now more than ever. Sometimes, talking saves lives, too. I'm terrified, most rational people are at the very least concerned, no one should be left with no one to talk to. So, I'm trying to get back to the point where I can actually be someone to talk to.