how long have you been self harm free? (possible trigger warning: SH)
I've seen this sort of thing on a couple of other sites.
It's to put your accomplishments, relapses or anything you want it to be
you could post every day if you need to or once a month, no accomplishments too small.
and if you relapse, you are strong. and you can do this.
I will try get back to as many people as I can and if you need message me on here.
if this doesn't work oh well, but id like to see it work.
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11 years next month.
you guys are all so strong.
relapses just mean you're recovering. if you werent trying to recover then you wouldn't relapse. but the fact that you relapse means you're strong. means you are trying to fight yourself which is the hardest fight anyone will have.
after each relapse you pick yourself up to try again. and if that doesn't show strength, then what does?
@1997Turtle
I completly agree, its not about realpse its about how we pick ourselves up and learn from them
I don't know... a few years. Maybe five or more. I didn't keep track of it. One day, I threw away my tools and promised myself that I would never do it again and I really didn't do it again. I didn't keep track of teh time. It turned into a week, and then a month, and then a year and then years, and then one day while discussing my ongoing depression, I suddenly remembered that I used to self-harm and was a little shocked that I hadn't even been thinking about it for so long. Since remembering that I used to self-harm, the urges do come back from time to time, but with distraction and meditation I am usually able to buy myself a minute or two until they pass again. It is kind of like an out-of-body experience remembering self-harm. I still have chronic depression, but self-harm never occurs to my as an option when I am having a depressive episode now. I have to remember that this is worth celebrating and that I deserve to be proud of this because often I am very down on myself but not self-harming is a huge accomplishment that I deserve to be proud of.
@wontsleepwontwake
great job keep up the work, we truly are proud of you regardless of time!!
@wontsleepwontwake
my record was 120 days with the old record was 28 but I relapsed
@wontsleepwontwake
@wontsleepwontwake I aint gunna lie I havent hit my head in a few hours, I'm proud tbh
Before September 6th of this year, I was self harm free for two months. Unfortunately, the bad vibes of September in my town combined with my troubled relationship with my sister, I had ended that during a breakdown in the bathroom 4 days ago.
@MajorMusic500
no matter what I am proud of you and glad you are trying to stay strong! Make you relapses meaningful!!
Four months. Longest in a long time
@generousOak7414
woohoo congrat, 4 months is so great, keep up the hard work!
I would like to say it's been a few months, but I felt worthless yesterday.... Luckily, I only did one. Still feel like shit, though.
@PurpleDragon8
Hey there wether you are still clean now or not, I am glad that you made it a few months! And if you still are Yay!
I've probably been self harming for only two years, but usually inconsistently, It's sporadic, so I can go weeks or hours between self harm. I just don't know what causes it.
@1997Turtle
I've been self harm free for only days I think. It's been really hard for me to resist lately and I'm not completely sure why. I'm just feeling really upset, and even as I'm writing this I'm resisting the urge to stab [edited by Eccho for poteintally triggering information]. I feel really alone because anyone I talk to about it doesn't understand what I'm going through. I self harm for reasons, but everyone seems to disregard these and just go ahead and scream at me "why?". I'm tired. I'm tired of these responses to me hurting myself. I don't want to tell other people if they'll act this way.
@kouseiarima1
Congratulations! The first few days are always the toughest. I haven't done anything for a little over 2 years. Best thing I did was everything I felt the need, I'd stop whatever I was doing and go for a walk or something to get outside and clear my head.
@HelpfulAid
Thanks. I will try doing something like that, but usually I can't make it go away.
@kouseiarima1 sometimes i think " why not I'm not hurting them only myself so why does it matter??!" but other times i think... "There are people who care and they only want to help and look out for me that's all and are there for me" good luck x. Stay strong x ignore the haters x
Three weeks now since my big wrist slitting incident. I went to the hospital yesterday and she ran her fingers down my arm, I could tell when she noticed the scar. I was so embarrassed. I used to be so good at being inconspicuous but this last time was just wreckless. I'm done for good.
I have been 3 months now self harm free. But I feel like maybe not bc all the stress and worry I put on myself is still self harming. 😕
