hello, My life is meh (POSSIBLE TRIGGER WARNING)

Hello everybody,

as you can read my life is meh. I was 455 days without cutting. today i had to restart.

About a year and a half ago I went ot the guidance counselors at school and told them i didn't want to live. Well that ended about as well as you can probably expect. Needless to say I went to the ER for a mental health eval the next day. Luckily I am a master manipulator and i didn't have to stay. But I did have to go to counseling.( which isn't a bad thing and I wanna go again) Things kinda started to improve from there. UNTIL summer between my Junior and Senior year ( this summer) twords the end of my junior year I was bullied alot. Bullying is not uncommon for me so I just try to brush it off, but these days were different. I was really bothered by it all. I ended up super depressed. I said that if I could make it till the summer I would be fine. Welp BOY was I WRONG. This summer consisted of A LOT of yelling by my parents, being called names and more stuff happening, while we did do a few things that were fun ( mainly with my mother) the rest of the summer was spent the same way. I kept telling myself if I can just make it till school starts I'll be fine. WELP again was I wrong. School started two days ago and I already dont enjoy it. It is already stressful. But whatever. I keep running into people that are mean and bully me. I am 0 days clean and I have a stressful schedule this year. I shall keep this forum updated if possible, and if you wanna share anything feel free to. This is a judgment free zone! don't worry about people making rude comments because i doubt that will happen here. If you want me to keep updating this let me know. But for now..... Good night and be wonderful... I love all of you litle ducklings <3 Ig you have any questions or comments just feel free to ask them here. Love you all <3 <3 <3