This might not make sense but...Do other people feel this way?
I find it hard to introduce myslef becuase I feel like I don't really know who I am. I feel so sperated from by body and its actions. I feel like my soul is traped in a body that's not mine. I'm not trans or anyhting. I just don't feel like my body is my own. Like it's not a part of me, I don't recognize myslef in pictures. I brush my teeth in the dark becuase I refuse to look in mirrors. It's not because I hate the way I look...I just don't recognize it as me and it's scary, like someone else is looking back at me.
It is hard to explain....I'm just as attached to my body as I am this laptop - it is just a tool. Becuase of this I find it hard to care for myself. I have no sence of self preservation. I feel traped. I'm not suicidal, I just don't care if I get hurt. Becuase my body isn't really me. Its just flesh and bones.
@purpleChestnut5944 That does sound tormenting. Now you didn't mention your age but it seems like you're very young and still discovering your identity and where you fit in. Once you get to know your self better you'll be more at ease with your body, it won't be like this forever.
@VeganFeministGenderFluid thank you for the support. I try to remeber that but it feels like noting will ever change. I'm 22 and I've been feeling like this my whole life. When I was a kid I would ask my parents who the other kid was in pictures of my family (it was me).
@purpleChestnut5944
That sounds terrifying. i hope you find the clarity you need.
stay strong. you are amazing.
