I'm trying to get used to this app (tw below!)
I'm Lilith 15 years old. I've been surrounded with self harm since I was about 9 and I would have never thought of doing it myself until recently. Consideration had come into mind but I knew you shouldn't harm yourself and why would someone do that?
For a few weeks especially once school started I've gotten close to cutting. I don't know why but it just seemed like a solution and I tried my hardest not to until not long ago there was an altercation with my ex and I did it. I felt like I deserved the pain.
For some reason I feel like I'm an exception from others? I can cut since I don't do it much. I can do it since I'm not really mentally I'll or suffering. I perceive it as a causal thing but I try my hardest to hide it from others. I either deserve the pain or it's just a way to take the edge off. Self harm is a cycle and I'm trying to remind myself it's not ok