I had a relapse with self harming and don
Hi, Im May. Its been more than 7 years since the last time I harmed myself. My insecurities, low self image and failing in relationships led me into depression. Im very poor at handling rejection and it made me more depressed because the feeling of being an unwanted person that I felt was just too much. Recently I had my heart broken over and over again it so painful I couldnt take it anymore. I hit myself and have been resisting to cut myself. My physical pain makes my emotional pain less painful. Now this urges didnt go away and its getting worse. Just having a relapse already shocked me and I feel so flustered right now. How do I suppress it?? Please help me...
@mayarwen Hey How are you?
It's great that you went so long without harming - be proud of that! Relapses happen - it's the way we cope with things. It sounds as though there is an awful lot of things overwhelming you at the moment. It can come as a surprise when the urges seem to come out of no where. You did great coming here - I know it takes a lot of courage to ask for help. Do you know ways to distract yourself when they happen? I usually go for a walk - just to get away. I try to lose myself in nature. But sometimes it's not enough. Rubber bands are good - so is holding ice. Or you can draw on yourself with marker. There is also what is called the butterfly project. Where everytime you feel like harming you draw a butterfly.
Remember - you're not alone in your struggle. We're all here to help. Stay strong - stay awesome.
Hello @mayarwen
First, I just want to say that you are incredibly brave for seeking help. I know things are hard right now but i promise it will get better (cheesy? yes. True? absolutely).
I understand your pain of relapsing. I have been there. My advice is to keep pushing through and look for other healthy coping skills. When you feel the urge to cut, try holding an icecube against the area you want to cut. Drawing on that area helps too. You can also write down what is triggering you or talk it out. There is nothing wrong with getting help. It does not make you weak and it is not something you should be ashamed off. You could try talking to a family memeber or a close friend. If you don't feel comfortable talking to someone you know you can talk to a a therapist or one of our listeners on 7cups. Those are just a few suggestions, but I'll be leaving some helpful links down below.
Please remember this: You are not alone. You are valid. You are loved. You deserve to get help. You deserve to feel happy.
Links: http://bit.ly/2F9omTQ
https://www.nami.org/Learn-More/Mental-Health-Conditions/Related-Conditions/Self-harm
http://suicidestop.com/self_harm_help.htmll
http://www.7cups.com/forum/SelfHarmRecovery_65/InformationandResources_1079/Videosthatmayhelpsomeonecopewiththoughtsofselfharm_141994/