i can’t stop (tw)
heyyy
soo first of tw since i’m gonna talk about SH
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sooo there’s a lot going on in my life and i feel like i’m in this massive hole that i can’t get out of.. i have no energy to do anything and just lying in bed all day is overwhelming for me… interacting with my toxic family just gives me the rest and i can’t stop hurting myself… the longest i’ve gone without it was four days and it’s just like my brain doesn’t even really want to stop
mit sounds crazy but i feel guilty if i don’t do it
mom doing it when i’m overwhelmed and stressed, when i’m scared, sad, angry but also when i’m bored and i just don’t know how to stop this if a part of me seemingly doesn’t want to stop…
i just don’t know what to do anymore and i’m scared that someone will find out
i hope you’re all okay and take care of yourselves (:
@danni123456
Hi! Sounds like life is feeling totally overwhelming for you, and you have maybe lived with this your whole life due to the toxic family issues? When we don't learn things like feeling our emotions, love, connection, support, etc early in life then we have to find coping mechanisms to survive, and SH is one of yours.
I am proud of you for reaching out here to talk about it, talking and sharing what you are going through and reaching out are important steps. Do you have anyone supportive in your life to spend time with?
Also just in case you haven't found them there are some great self-help guides here - https://www.7cups.com/supportGuides/selfHelpGuides.php you can go through them yourself or with someone else - a listener here maybe. 💛
@VioletSpringGlade
thank you so much for your support and i’m sorry for the late reply there’s been a lot going on the last few days…
and yes, it’s really hard for me to just feel things since i never really was allowed to be feeling anything but happy. it’s like my mind doesn’t even know how to not suppress everything…
i don’t really have anyone supportive cause no one knows about it
thank you so much
@danni123456
I am so proud of you for reaching out. I know it can be scary to be vulnerable and share your story. I can't imagine how hard it must be for you, being so exhausted and dealing with a toxic family. I do know about self harm, how many different reasons there are that drives it. I understand feeling guilty when you don't engage in self harm too. The road out of self harm doesn't happen overnight, and you've taken the first step. You didn't self harm for four days? Give yourself some credit. It may not seem like a lot, and I know for myself how difficult it was to stop when it felt like an addiction, so take the wins, even if they're small. I sincerely believe that you can overcome this, and if you need someone to cheer alongside you, feel free to message me.
