@floraM13
Hi there !
First of all congratulations on being 3 months clean ! Trust me, it's something worth celebrating !
I'm sorry to hear about your quiz though. As much as it seems like a failure at the moment, with time some of those feelings will diminish. I don't know where you feel like you are on the road to recovery, but you're still on the road. By staying clean for 3 months, you've proved to yourself that you can do it. When we're confronted to emotions that are hard to deal with, we tend to go back to our old habits because they're familiar and familiarity brings comfort. It would make sense that while finding it hard to deal with the 'failure' of your exam you would go back to self harm, even consciously. Though there are a few things that I'd like to point out :
- You've identified what triggers your need to self harm, maybe you could try to think about another way to deal with your emotions ? Here is a list of alternatives.
- You've been clean once, so that means that you can do it again. Plus this time, you have the experience of having already done it once !
- You, just like anyone else, are worthy of love and that also includes self love. That alone would make it worth trying to stay clean.
- You're not alone. If need be, you can reach out to us here on the forums or you can connect with a listener if you prefer a 1 on 1 chat.
Take care <3
